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taiyed.

I am so tired cleaning up after your mess.
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random stuffs about me. starting from now.

Im going to start writing things about me, from me. Random stuffs which i think alot of people do not know cause¬†1)i don’t like to show , 2) nobody asks. ūüôā This will be updated often. As often as i can come up with facts about myself.

I hate green tea. Everything about it; its taste, any brands in any packaging. I ABHORE IT. Like totally.

You might laugh on this but i am a naturally shy girl. If you see me talking so much or gets excited, is probably because i get nervous as much as i get shy. Really.

I hate indecisive attitudes. When im face to face with a dilemma, i realise that its either this or that. I give myself no more than a week to make a decision. If i take more than that, chances are, im not interested to give an answer.

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Solemn thoughts.

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Life’s a gift, Happiness is a right.

I think as days pass thru this Oh-Ten, and age creeping up, i’ve become more naggy, more impatient, more no-nonsense old hag and definitely thinking more motherly-like. Not an excuse for being an asshole but i guessed maybe i ought to grow up and ta-daa, i think i did this year.

Upon reaching 30, i’d say Not bad, i’ve done stupid things, fun things, cool things and definitely shameful/tabooed things. I’d say i’ve lived my life fully. Im not saying it¬†this way thou, “‘Im a¬†champion. I’ve experienced soo many things before man!!”, but, more like “As i’ve been in that position before, … …” kind. Alas, im not that stupid. I know everybody is entitled to their own opinions and face each problems their own way. Therefore, i learnt to give and share and leave it to others to interprete it. Im learnt to leave it at that.

Sometimes i sigh, sometimes i laugh, sometimes i get annoyed, sometimes i get surprised. Life’s like that. Sometimes, and what ifs. I learn as i live each day. I learn to breathe happiness everyday and not let minor problems affect it. But i also learn that i am my own master of happiness, and unfortunately, also my own master of sadness, problems and fate. When i was a lot younger, i often whine to myself why didnt things go my way. I cried a lot to myself, cause fate wasn’t good to me.

When i had to make a decision to leave someone so i can be a lot happier with that other someone, i didnt ask for anybody’s opinions. I remembered i have noone to ask, share and dissect my problem. Cause i thought nobody would understand perfectly what i was going through. I decided to go through with it. I went through the worst days of my life trying to make a big decision that would change my future. I went through all of that ALL ALONE. Im not beat up about it. Im not whining about it. Im not crying out loud now thinking about it. Im not petty. But i wished i shared the problems. Always, 2 heads are better than one and few more heads wouldnt hurt. Im a welcomer of opinions and i’ve never push away advises, grouses and frank talks.

Having making that decision and to standby it, was very difficult. I had to face my father, my mother, him and his angry friends, his family all on my own. So many thoughts came to my mind. I was living in shame. What would my¬†parents think, what would my uncles n aunties think, what would my cousins think.¬†What made it more difficult was that he did nothing wrong. He was faithful, he treated me like a queen, he was all nice. I had to choose. The new man, who’s all nice, or the long-time boyfriend/fiance who’s¬†always been nice. I knew i had to choose. One with a future i more or less had accustomed to and probably knew how it would be, or the one whose future im not familiar with. I chose the one whose future im not familiar with. I just had to. I know if i stay, my future will probably end up how i visioned it will be. I don’t want any of that.

Now fast-forward 5years, im glad i make that decision. Of course, there are days where in anger, i regret making that decision. But more often than not, i was whole-heartedly glad. I glad i made that move to want out. Im glad i meet this man and im glad that although our married life is often a hell-ride of a rollercoaster, i stayed anyways cause i know he’s the one. I married THE ONE. No regrets even when¬†i know he’s damn annoying fucker.

So, when there are days i moaned and getting all arsed by him, i always make myself rewind back to 5years back and remembered all the reasons i chose him. People always say to themselves, “I know it’s not going to be easy.” but do they understand what it means, how it’ll feel and how hard it’s gonna get? I try to teach myself to live with no regrets. Living with no regrets, are my main drive in life.

That’s what i want to share with the others. Live your life with no regrets. Life is afterall a gift. but happiness, is a right. You have the right. Therefore, You own the right.

xoxo

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kata-kata sakti.

Faith is not necessary when you know how things are going to work out, – that’s knowledge.

It’s in the time of unknowing that having faith is what sees you through to the other side. Faith is what gives you strength. Faith is that light in your heart that keeps on shining even when it’s all darkness outside.

Now is the time to keep that faith alive!

Kadang-kadang, bila kita sedih, mata kita jadi buta, hati jadi keras, fikiran jadi tak tentu. Kita lupa kita living dlm keadaan yg nyata, Now. Kita lupa orang sekeliling kerana kita fikir IT’S MY LIFE! Tapi kita lupa, dlm kita bersedih, ada orang lain yg perlukan keceriaan kita, who’s probably waiting for us to see the truth, whose future has us in it. InsyaAllah, kita boleh melalui masa-masa gelap. It takes time, slowly but surely..

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Photo that makes u go

..”what the hell was he thinking..??!”

weirdos

Platos’s Atlantis by Alexander McQueen’s Ready to Wear Spring Summer 2010 collection

Can 21st century be any weirder than this? I hope not.. -_-

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Smoky eyes n sex.

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photos by Interview Magazine

How i wish i can carry off a smoky eyes like Kirsten’s here¬†and not looking like i lost a year’s worth of sleep. She looks so good with her Joan Jett’s black crop hairdo and i secretly wishing too that i can carry it off like Kirsten can. But i know my fat neck and this round face will probably make the attempt an epic fail, so i’d better save the horror and moos for better attempts, like maybe making myself fairer for instance hurhur. Still sore about the darkskinned remark, but it’ll pass soon i hope.

wolfpackTeam Wolf poster for NM.

Bad boys rock. See those bloated arms packed with mucles and sex? I like! With a poster like this, i think i can forget i have any problems in this world. Oh Taylor. Oh Alex!

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